Nice to see you!

Three major events occurred for me last year (2010), all in the space of about 2 weeks. I turned 50. The following day I got married. Two weeks later, my oldest daughter became pregnant with her first child and my first grandchild.

Most middle-aged people will tell you that in their minds, they still feel 20 something. It's the same for me.

Wasn't it only yesterday that I was planning a night out with guys from the surf club? That gorgeous new perm. Flaired, cuffed denims and the red t-shirt with the off-the-shoulder frill. Corked platform wedgies. **sigh**

Suddenly I'm looking in the mirror and wondering how 30 years can flash by so damned quickly!

So here I am in cyberspace, sharing my genuine shock and horror with anyone who'll listen and maybe I'll even meet some other over 50s who find themselves in the same predicament!

Welcome to my dilemna!!

Friday, April 24, 2026

Like Yesterday

It doesn’t feel like we’ve been together for 23 years. 

I moved from Griffith to Sydney in April of 2005 to live with Adoring Husband, but that really feels like just a few years ago.

We were married in the Lions Park at Burrum Heads in 2010 and so we celebrated 16 yrs of marriage today.

We drove into the bay and out to the marina where we had reservations at Truly Asia for lunch. We both ordered steamed duck and mushrooms (because that was our number one choice at our favourite restaurant in Sydney) but it didn’t live up to the Sydney dish. The duck AND the mushrooms were tough. Still edible and the flavours were delicious, but I wouldn’t choose it again.

There were leftovers … my duck dish and plain fried rice plus AH’s special fried rice, so we ordered a takeaway Nahm Jim Chicken which was enough for us to have for dinner tonight.

After lunch, we walked across to the Boat Club, and when I swiped my card, because it was my birthday, I received a free drink, which I gave to AH so that he could sit and watch me play the pokies for 30 minutes. 

We ran a couple of errands before returning home, including buying Harley a new toy, which he loved!

BGWLBH worked today so I made her my famous turkey breast, avocado, cranberry jelly, goats cheese and sprouts on toasted sourdough for dinner. We had leftover trifle for dessert.

AH and I retired to our beds at 7pm! 

I am pretty darned tired and feel that I will sleep soundly tonight.

It has been a really nice day.





Nite all.

Thursday, April 23, 2026

Let’s Celebrate

Allegedly haha

THE EQUIPMENT BROUGHT TO THE MOON IN 1971 Apollo 15 (the first moon landing that brought the land rover)

The fuel for the capsule and the rover. Plus 12 days of food. Plus 12 days of water. Plus a massive parachute. Plus a landing capsule, which had to be reinforced enough to withstand re-entry into earth's atmosphere. Plus tools. Plus 12 days of oxygen for 3 people. Plus 3 astronauts and they say 15 different space suits. (I just found that out now...wow 15 different suits) Plus camera gear. Plus regular clothing. Plus 12 days of human waste. Plus 3 layers of engineered redundancy electronics, which means you needed 2 back up systems for every survival-based system being used, just in case the first two systems failed. Plus the rover, which was the size of a car. Plus the American flag and flagpole. Plus rock samples. 

In Apollo 11 (the first moon landing) a Freemasonic silk bag and handwritten deputation was brought by Buzz Aldrin, to place "the moon" under Freemasonic jurisdiction. But I'm sure that last part has nothing to do with anything questionable about any of the "moon landings".. 

When you're insane and the person next to you is equally insane, you just think that you're both completely normal. Sane people know why I included that last sentence.


On the 24th April, Adoring Husband and I will have been married for 16 years (we’ve been together for 23 yrs).

We are going out for lunch to Truly Asian on the marina, which should be nice. 

Today, for my birthday, BGWLBH and I went into the bay. The RSL Club enjoyed our company for a couple of hours. I did some grocery shopping and got a green juice.

AH cooked a chicken curry for dinner, which saved me from cooking. I had a prawn and noodle laksa soup for a late lunch so I didn’t eat dinner.

The cake that AH made me was a little dry, so I chopped up most of it and made a trifle using port wine jelly, tinned peaches and pears, custard, cream and crunchy coconut swirls on top. It’s a HUGE trifle and AH doesn’t like trifle! This means that it’s all for BGWLBH and I. Yummy!

We played trivia tonight.

My gifts were two tops, two bracelets, a bag charm, two journals and a solar powered hummingbird for the garden.

My favourite aunty Jackie phoned me early this morning and we chatted for about 45 minutes. Bubbles phoned while we were on our way into the bay and she was supposed to call back this afternoon but didn’t. 

There was a video from my little sister of her singing happy birthday (very poorly lol), a text from my niece, a text from my brother, a text from my Aunty Fay and from my friend Heather.

A text from Vegan Chickie, but none from Number One son, which is unusual and I’m a bit worried about him, but hoping he is preoccupied with a friend.

Lots of Facebook messages which were lovely.

So I will sleep soundly and prepare for another day of celebrations tomorrow.








It’s all.

Wednesday, April 22, 2026

The Big 66

More food for thought …

★ The Next Lockdown Is Voluntary

The next lockdowns aren't going to be forced on you. Nobody's going to mandate anything. You're just going to stay home because you can't afford to leave, and that's exactly how they want it.

Here's what's happening. Over 60 countries are already blending ethanol into their gasoline, and starting May 1st, the escalation begins. The official story is clean and rehearsed ⊷ energy security, greenhouse gas reduction, rural development. They've labeled it green policy. They'll sell it as saving the planet and supporting farmers, and most people are going to swallow it whole because the pitch sounds responsible and they have zero idea what's about to happen to their engine and their bank account.

The justification is global. So is the damage.

Your tank costs a fortune to fill, and ethanol-laced fuel burns so fast : 3x faster > you'll be back at the pump before you've gotten anywhere worth going. Fuel efficiency drops, fill-up costs climb, and you're getting hit on both ends every single time you drive. That's not a side effect. That's the point.

Anyone driving an older vehicle without flex-fuel capacity is on a countdown clock. Your catalytic converter, your fuel injectors, your engine ⊷ within a month you're looking at serious mechanical damage. People figure this out the hard way, then panic and rush for ethanol neutralizers and fuel additives. Those products leave the shelves in days the same way toilet paper did in 2020, because people in a panic are completely predictable every single time.

So the math is simple. Pay through the nose to fill your tank and destroy your vehicle doing it, or just don't drive. Most people choose option two. That's the voluntary lockdown. No mandate. No enforcement. The price stops them cold.

COVID gave them 18 months of lockdowns through fear. This one delivers the same result through your wallet.

And because this is global, you can't point at one government or one policy. They've rolled this out across 60-plus nations and wrapped it in climate language so that anyone who pushes back looks like they hate clean air and farmers. That's a deliberate construction. Push back and you're the bad guy. It's set up so that no serious opposition can form without being socially destroyed first.

If this sounds like a conspiracy theory to you, good luck with that. Conspiracy theory is a label invented to kill an investigation before it starts. It has nothing to do with whether something is true or false. It is a social weapon whose only job is to make the person asking the question look stupid enough that they shut up. The question never gets answered ⊷ it just becomes too socially expensive to keep asking. Every major truth in history was called a conspiracy theory before it was called a fact.

People are going to stay home, stop spending, and live on whatever's cheapest ⊷ and the whole thing gets blamed on carbon emissions.

🛑 Get ahead of it now, before the panic makes that impossible.

❕❕ If this information triggered you, GOOD! You should be triggered. Wake up and smell the deceit! ❕❕

Your Rebel With A Cause ★ Stella Young 

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Today was bedroom day for me. 

I was feeling pretty miserable for most of it. I don’t know why. Hopefully that miserable feeling will pass by tomorrow.

I watched some Mayim Bialik (neuroscientist, author, actor) on YouTube. One interview with Sam Knight who wrote the book “The Premonitions Bureau: A True Account of Death Foretold” which mostly follows the studies and research of a doctor in the 60s who documented premonitions by people worldwide. It was intriguing and interesting.

The second show was an interview with Lee Harris, a channeller, spiritual teacher, intuitive and author discussing humanity expanding our consciousness. Also intriguing and interesting.

I napped for about 90 minutes and dragged myself out of bed to make tacos for dinner.

It was the easiest because there was leftover taco mince in the freezer so I just reheated that, chopped up some lettuce and tomato, poured grated cheese into a bowl, hot sauce and sour cream, chucked the taco shells in the oven for 5 minutes and whammo, all done. I think it took about 20 minutes.

We played trivia before all heading to bed at 7.30pm.

I think I can sleep again now. 





Nite all.

Tuesday, April 21, 2026

Surprise not Surprise

Adoring Husband, mistakenly thinking that tomorrow (Wednesday), was my birthday, asked BGWLBH to keep me occupied for the day so that he could make me a birthday cake.

We drove into the bay and wasted 3 hours.

We arrived home to find a square double decker chocolate/vanilla cake sandwiched with fresh cream and topped with chocolate icing.

Only one problem.

He used the cream that I had in the fridge which was a week past its use by date!

Also, he realised that my birthday isn’t until Thursday and the cake certainly wouldn’t be fresh by then and the cream especially would be even more questionable 🤨 

So this is the checklist of waste for the day:

  • Three hours in the bay
  • Fuel for a return trip into the bay
  • One trip to the local shops for cake mixes
  • Two new square cake tins
  • One vanilla cake mix
  • One chocolate cake mix
  • 4-6 eggs
  • One bottle of lactose free cream
  • Ninety minutes preparation and cooking time in the kitchen
  • One double decker chocolate/vanilla cake now in the trash
  • One surprise birthday cake which is now no longer a surprise
I need to state that I appreciate the sentiment and the effort behind AH’s gesture. It’s a big deal and I love that he wants to do this for me 🥰

Little Hazie received the second of my three parcels today …

One more parcel to turn up.

Leftover chicken schnitzel with coleslaw, potato salad and garden salad for dinner.

I bought two sand crabs today and shelled them this afternoon. My dinner was fresh crab meat on fresh sour dough bread. I was channeling my Dad - it was our favourite food to eat together. This year will be 29 yrs since he passed. Wow.

Now it’s time for me to sleep.


Nite all.

Against the Grain

For those who are perplexed by my perspective on Trump: 

I see Trump through a different lens than the typical binary options. I'm neither a Republican nor a Democrat, I don't identify with either, though I have previously belonged to each party. I see through the manipulation of the two-party system, and I deplore the ways in which we are being intentionally divided against each other. 

Those who are doing the division are intentionally manipulating us this way, so that we don't pay any attention to what they're doing behind the proverbial curtain. 

I see Trump as a dismantler, an exposer, a disruptor of status quo. And status quo 100% needs to be disrupted and dismantled. 

I see him bringing down what needs to be brought down, but somebody else will do the rebuilding. 

He also serves as a heyoka, and is playing his cosmic role as a mirror, forcing us to face just how far we have collectively fallen from our own declared ideals.

If anyone else had been elected, it would have been perverse business-as-usual. How strange that nobody seems to be affected at the discovery that most of our institutions, corporations, and governments have been infiltrated, and are being run by, psychopaths and others who are complicit in sex-trafficking and even cannibalism of children. 

Hardly anyone blinked at that. 

I've known about all of that for years, and I knew I wouldn't be believed if I said it out loud. I wanted it all to be exposed, and I certainly thought there would be more of a strong reaction to such an atrocity. Bizarre. 

I've been aware that organizations that are supposedly benevolent, such as the UN, NATO, WHO, and WEF, are all being run by these very same people, who are hell-bent on depopulating the planet by any means necessary, taking us from over 8 billion down to a mere 500 million. The ways in which they have done so have become "normal life" - and they are accepted and even promoted by those who are still believing the lie about their supposed "benevolence."

These people own the corporations, the institutions, including the medical and educational systems, the media, and they employ both propaganda and psyops to manipulate us into whatever they want us to believe, and to do whatever they want us to do, as a result. 

The pandemic, which was intentionally planned and intentionally released, was not only a crime against humanity, but a dress-rehearsal to see how well we would comply with unconstitutional mandates -- provided we were in enough fear and confusion to do so. 

The globalists, the elites, the cabal, whatever you want to call them, have been working together for decades, and have been intending to take us through a series of intentional pandemics, with mandated experimental vaccines, leading up to 2030, in which they intend to create what they call the Great Reset.

The ultimate goal is to take a vastly reduced population, manipulate us into intense fear, through those pandemics and the results of the vaccines, employ a totalitarian system based on communist China, corral us into Smart Cities, watch our every move with digital facial recognition cameras, and control our access to our own digital money, by how well we comply with their mandates.

The people behind all of this are megalomaniac psychopaths. You don't know their names or their faces. Anyone you can point to is just one of their figurehead puppets. 

Some people call them the deep state, or shadow government, the cabal, or you can call them what Obama called them, The Blob. He was one of their puppets. *Every* president with the exception of JFK, was previously one of their puppets. 

They don't care who wins any election, as long as they bow down and do their bidding. They are rewarded handsomely for doing so, They are controlled with blackmail if they get out of line, and they pay the highest of prices if they refuse -- JFK being an example. 

Trump was not expected to win in his first presidential campaign. It was laughable at the time. Even he didn't think he would win. When it turns out he did, the cabal was severely threatened, because he refused to do their bidding, and outright intended to expose them -- and even though they have thrown everything in the book at him, judicial lawfare, lies, innuendo, skewing public opinion, truncated videos, character assassination, and even two literal assassination attempts -- they couldn't stop him. 

I previously fell for their tactics. I despised him, had full-blown TDS, for 8 of the previous 10 years. I wanted Bobby Kennedy for president. And when it became clear that the DNC unlawfully and unconstitutionally prevented him from successfully running a campaign, I was shocked that my friends on the Left, when I was still a Democrat, believed the lies the media was putting out about him. 

I even caught ABC overdubbing the interviewer's questions, changing the questions entirely from the original recording, so that it looked like his answers were deranged. I had seen the original. And I saw for myself how they changed the questions when it was aired on ABC. 

Seeing how far the media would go, and knowing that my friends had fallen for the lies, I had to ask myself, in the name of all integrity... Was it possible that I also believed lies about Trump? 

When Bobby aligned with Trump, I initially felt guttered and betrayed, but I doubled down and did my homework, and discovered that I had indeed believed lies about Trump (including that he supposedly had said there were "very fine people" amongst the white supremacists, following the Charlottesville riot). That was thoroughly debunked in 2019, but it didn't stop both Biden and Harris, or whoever wrote their scripts, from using that tactic against him, again. Even the fact checkers, who should have known better, didn't object. 

Surprise surprise, I also discovered that "fact" checkers only say whatever they are paid to say.

I then realized how corrupt the Democratic party leadership had become, and how they were also a puppet of the deep state. They did away with the primary, not once, but twice, hand-selecting first Biden, who was mentally incompetent, and then Harris, in backroom deals, devoid of a single vote from a single citizen. My friends on the Left didn't even blink it that atrocity.

I am doing two blog posts today. This one is just me sharing something that I found on social media, and which I found interesting.

This is an interesting ‘take’ on Donald Trump that I wanted to share here.

I voted for Trump. And I do not regret my vote. As I said, any other vote would have been perverse business-as-usual. I wanted everything exposed, dismantled, and rebuilt. And this was the only way for that to happen. 

People may or may not ever recognize that Trump is far more than he appears to be. That he is not the public persona he projects. He does that intentionally, playing with the cabal and the elites at their own game. He even trolls his detractors, putting out all sorts of diversions, throwing a bone to the crowd, so that everyone underestimates him, and then he can just go and do what he said he was going to do in the first place. 

I have learned to take him seriously, but not literally. Those who despise him instead take him literally, but not seriously.

I am aware that I will likely continue to pay the high price of being misunderstood and misjudged for the choices I have made. I have grown strong enough to be able to live with that. 

I know my truth, I know the deception, and I know what needs to happen.

I continue to trust that Life knows what She's doing, and I trust my own Soul to lead me through all of this. 

I am among the many who are here for such a time as this. I am grateful. This is a fascinating and exciting time in which to be alive.

Monday, April 20, 2026

Same Old

[The Nicotine Psyop That Made Big Pharma TRILLIONS w/ Dr. Bryan Ardis

For over a century, Big Pharma and its media allies have waged a relentless campaign to convince the world that nicotine is nothing more than a dangerous, addictive drug. In this explosive interview, Dr. Bryan Ardis joins me to reveal the shocking truth buried in centuries of medical history: tobacco and nicotine were once widely used by doctors to treat — and even cure — countless diseases, from cancer to heart disease to obesity. Backed by documented evidence, Dr. Ardis exposes how the pharmaceutical industry rigged the narrative, poisoned commercial tobacco products, and bribed governments worldwide to ban natural nicotine, all to protect their multi-trillion-dollar drug empire.]

My take …

During the wars, (WWI, WWII, Korean, Vietnam and others), soldiers were issued tobacco in their kit. It was to help ward off viruses and diseases that they might be susceptible to in the jungles, underground and in the trenches. Pure tobacco.

It only became dangerous when the tobacco companies added synthetics, chemicals and so-called filters.

Non mainstream health professionals sometimes recommend nicotine patches for a number of health conditions and I’ve considered using them myself.

The world is not as it seems. The lies that we are told are certainly not for our benefit.

Anyway … 

Today was another lazy day. Harley play, garden tending, watched the remaining episodes of The Madison, I crumbed chicken breasts, boiled potatoes in their jackets, made coleslaw and salsa and served with butter and sour cream for dinner.

Now I need to sleep because tomorrow is meditation day.





Nite all.