Here’s a Smile

I thought you might like to start your day with a smile ...



Today marked the 15th anniversary of my Mum’s passing.

It was a weird kind of day for many reasons and I have been triggered a few times today by other things that have left me feeling mentally and emotionally drained.

The Universe is testing me right now and I have to put all of my best tools into practice to work my way through the triggers and the feelings. I don’t just mean what’s going on for me personally, but what’s going on in the world as a whole and so much more than the COVID 19 story.

It’s time for me to withdraw from researching for a while because everything takes me down the rabbit hole of evil and it’s too horrible to discuss with another human being. I don’t know anyone who could cope with what I’ve learned so I can’t even debrief to get it off my chest. It feels like a heavy burden and I need to find a way to release it.

So my decision is to stop, look within and focus on healing and forgiving and moving forward with all the good things in my life. I want to feel the lightness of resilience and gain back control of my health and my happiness and make plans for the best future that I can create for myself.

I will let go of what I can’t control and find my higher vibration 🤗☀️

Be prepared for greatness!!

But before that happens, you know how I feel about potatoes? I have an unhealthy addiction to this legume, which my mouth and my mind find irresistible, but the remainder of my body dislikes and rejects in painful ways.

I know I shouldn’t but as soon as my body heals from the last ‘input’ of potatoes, I push the limits and savour the deliciousness of some more. I’m always willing to risk the pain - because that’s what addictions do!

Gosh I have so much to work on! I have been reduced to a shadow of my former mentally strong and healthful self. I hardly recognise me!

Three things for which I am grateful:

1. Cold nights for sound snuggly sleeps. I love the crisp cool air floating through my bedroom window onto my face while I pull the doona up tight under my chin.
2. Liquid food - green juices, berry smoothies, bone broths, lemon water, herbal teas and morning coffee. They all make me feel cleaner and more energised and I plan on savouring all of them on a more regular basis.
3. Writing. I love to write (I’ve done more note taking than writing in the last three months) so I’m getting all my journals out and will delve deep into writing creatively and therapeutically again.

Once again, it’s approaching 1am so I’d best get some sleep. I have a big day planned with the girls tomorrow!

Nite all