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Three major events occurred for me last year (2010), all in the space of about 2 weeks. I turned 50. The following day I got married. Two weeks later, my oldest daughter became pregnant with her first child and my first grandchild.

Most middle-aged people will tell you that in their minds, they still feel 20 something. It's the same for me.

Wasn't it only yesterday that I was planning a night out with guys from the surf club? That gorgeous new perm. Flaired, cuffed denims and the red t-shirt with the off-the-shoulder frill. Corked platform wedgies. **sigh**

Suddenly I'm looking in the mirror and wondering how 30 years can flash by so damned quickly!

So here I am in cyberspace, sharing my genuine shock and horror with anyone who'll listen and maybe I'll even meet some other over 50s who find themselves in the same predicament!

Welcome to my dilemna!!

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Making the small pleasures guilt-free

I spent a whole hour, yesterday, laying in my hammock in the Winter sunshine.  Pure bliss!  I didn't read or listen to music or focus on anything except the warmth of the sun and the sound of the chooks and their quiet contented clucking.

By the end of an hour, I felt guilty for having been so self indulgent and I came inside the house.  It's very strange that I should feel guilty for enjoying something so simple and I wonder, from where, that guilt stems.

I even looked at the hammock this afternoon and considered spending some more time in it, but denied myself the pleasure, opting instead to unpack my market gear and do a little tidying of the house.

Must rid myself of this unnecessary guilt!  Must enjoy more time in my hammock!  It's on my "Fifty two things to do before I turn fifty two" list!

Enjoying the hammock with Psychotic Dogs
Played a good nine holes of golf yesterday too.  I must say that it was quite chilly on the golf course at 6.30am but once we got moving, we soon warmed up.

It was even too cold for the kangaroos!  We usually see a mob of kangaroos sunning themselves in the paddock beside the golf course, but there were none to be seen yesterday!

To get to the golf course, there is a bridge crossing over a river and when we looked out over the edge of the bridge,  the water was so still, that it looked like a mirror reflecting the perfectly blue sky and the trees lining the banks.  There was a soft mist floating above the water which made it look so pretty and peaceful.  Alas, no camera :o(

I hope that my description is enough to help you conjure the picture in your mind.

Today was market day and I set up my stall alone because my usual off-sider, the lovely Aussie H, is away caring for her grandchildren while her son and his wife are on holidays, and Adoring Husband played golf.

The weather was spectacular!  One of those days where the sunlight glistens off everything and the air is so clean that the colours are vibrant and crisp.  There was a cool breeze and I found myself lifting my face to the sky and closing my eyes to feel the warmth on my skin.

I only had two sales for the day, but I met another stall holder who was lovely and I got to talk to so many locals who are now in the habit of stopping by to say hello on their way through the markets.  With so much socialising happening, it makes the morning go by so quickly!

Little Chicklet visited me briefly with Vegan Chickie and The Bare-chested Chef on their way into The Bay.

On my way home, I pedalled down by the river and just sat for a while looking at the water and watching people bring their boats in and out on the boat ramp.  A very pleasant twenty minutes.

A beautiful sunshiny day
Bubbles phoned me this afternoon to find out how Grandmotherly life was treating me.  We had an interesting conversation over the noise of traffic as she walked home from work along the busy main street in Sydney where she lives.  I miss her :o(

I declare, from this day forward, that my small pleasures in life will be enjoyed GUILT-FREE!

       

1 comment:

eljaih said...

we never did a photo of the 2nd hand car that was found for bare chested chef and vegan chickie..
and what did they call it?
Yes sorry for the loud traffic noise :( the joys of living in Sydney!
I MISS YOU TOO!
p.s i STILL cant believe that you said you wouldnt come see me until i have kids!
*shakes head*
:P