A brief note of sadness

I'm feeling a bit sad tonight so my post will be short.

One of my lovely boys from the boat ramp got some bad results from his medical tests on Monday and rather than end up being a burden on anyone in the near future, he attempted to take his own life.

Thank goodness he was unsuccessful and I'm hoping to see him at the hospital tomorrow.

Although he knows how much he means to me, and I remind him every so often, I hope to get the chance to tell him again, because I believe that his family may take him to live somewhere else and I won't get to see him every day, like I have for the last two and a half years.

My boys at the boat ramp bring me the greatest of joys, and I know that I am also going to feel the deepest of lows as the years roll on and I lose them one by one, but I don't want to lose any of them this way.